I've had a mentally horrible day today, I've been crying uncontrolably due to pms. I haven't been diagnosed with pms but I think crying is a good indicator of it. Hubby was understanding and by far the only person who I can open up too properly. Even though the initial symptoms are more or less gone, the aftermath - 'Insomnia' just kicked in. I think I laid on my bed for most of the day just staring at the ceeling wondering how long this mood swing will last this time and wonder how many different ways I can hate people for no apparent reason. But thats how it is when we go through this phase, we get weird - We know this, Controlling it is another thing altogether!

The Met office has issued some warnings of thunderstorms to hit the south of England and parts of Wales for the next few days - Regular bank holiday + School Holiday weather eh! This helps loads ...not!!! Having my kids stuck in the house for most of the week isn't something I had planned, I don't really feel like having to deal with hyperactive kids right now. I just had a thought, maybe hubby could  take them swimming through the week! Just figured something else out aswell, I must be comming back to normal since I have begun solving little problems again. What a relief!

I started a low calorie diet a few days ago, it's going well. I want to be able to walk around the beaches of tenerife without having to suck in my tummy. They say women shouldn't pay so much attention to how they look because men really don't see what we have problems with. Is that true? Do men 'not' see big asses and cellulite? I know my hubby loves me the way I am, but when a woman see's another slim perfectly formed woman we tend to want the same body and naturally we get paranoid. I was looking at other women on the beach last year and thought how did I let myself get so out of shape? I never used to be like this, and ended up pulling my towel up a little bit further. I don't want to do that this year, I want to feel proud for trying to look great, if it's not perfect it don't matter, at least I can say I tried. Until next time.